This year has been nothing but life-changing for me. In January I just moved back to Hungary and was having a hard time figuring out what direction my life should take, in February I was really close to breaking down and not even learning how to snowboard helped me out of the dump. In March I decided to be ridiculous and start one of these self absorbed stupid little things called a blog and it did change my life and that's a fact. The more I got involved in the online world the more I started to find myself. First I felt kinda strange having more online friends thean real ones but guess what, all the amazing stories, all the amazing people I've virtually met have inspired me and made me realize that I needed a change. In April I bought my first DSLR camera and I figured out what my absolute dream job may be..... becoming a photographer. In May AC moved to Hungary and we finally rented a little place in Budapest. It has never really been a real home but at least we have been living under the same roof again and secretely I started to look for photography schools. Could I really do it? Can I just decide screw my diplomas, I want something else out of life? Can I still make a change? Is it not too late??? In June I've
stalked met a photographer who agreed to have me as an assistant for a couple of months. It was a very short but highly reqarding experience! YES! I've decided that it was definitely what I wanted to do, I've applied and got in art school. In July I took my mum to Egypt for her 50th Birthday while I've spent my August being lazy and enjoying the wonderful weather. In September school has started and I've made some new friends. In October I had my first real photoshoot and started to really immerse myself in photography. By November I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I want to, NO I will be a photographer! In December AC got a new job and he has moved back to Berlin, work got crazy and I've stressed out of my mind, cried my eyes out and convinced everyone that something's gotta give... I quit my job and decided to give it a full shoot.... if I make it I'll be the happiest girl alive.. if no at least I've tried.
Wanna know the morale of the story? I know I use phrases like "I love you all" or "your support means the world" and these things do sound cliche, catchy and totally untrue, but guess what.... If I hadn't met you, if I hadn't started this stupid little blog, I would have never figured out what I want to do with my life and I would still be a confused little girl, lost in this big big world. OK this does sound cliche as well and this is starting to be an embarrasingly boring and long blogpost, so I guess what I'm trying to say is THANK YOU. From the bottom of my heart I thank you. It has been an incredible year with tragic lows and manic highs but for the first time in my life I know what I want and I can feel it so close I can almost taste it. I promise I'll be a better blogger next year and I promise to try and let you in my life even more than I did until now. I love you all and your support means the world to me! :)
Here is to an amazing and empowering 2011!!!!